Not quite what I had in mind

Fuck yes I lost weight!....??????
Body... an Ulcer was not what I had in mind.

Technically, I am not sure it is an ulcer... but the doctors don't fucking know either, so I assume.
I went to the doctor ($110 down the drain) and told him I had been sick for a week and that it was not a normal sick, and that I know what food poisioning feels like and this is NOT it and it is more serious. He was nice, but an idiot and he just told me that it was food poisoning. Here is what was going through my mind, but not to my mouth "No, you fucker. It is not food poisoning. Are you RETARDED. I have gone to college, I have drank til I spewed, I have eaten at Jack in the Box. I KNOW what food poisoning feels like" But Noooo... did I say that... NOOO.

A week later it got worse and I went to another doctor. (more money go bye bye). First rant here (and I will keep it short): Idaho suck. It does not provide proper health care options for people who are, like me, without insurance. I can get great free healthcare if I am a Whore (I can get free aids tests, and std tests, etc) or Homeless (dont even fucking ask), but not if I am a contributing citizen who knows how to use a condom.
I went to one place everyone kept telling me to go (by everyone I mean I called the state departmend of health and welfare.... who are idiots). I went there so early they had to unlock the doors to let me in. I told them I would like to see a doctor. They asked if I had medicaid (which I can not get unless I get knocked up. Whores only), or if I was homeless. I said no. They said "Well then I am sorry we can't help you" WHAT THE FUCK!!! I said "Lady, I am in pain, I can walk out the door come back in and tell you that I am homeless if you like" She looked at me like I was devil spawn.
I was pissed.
And that is the SHORT version.

So we know that I am not/do not have:
H.Pilori
Pregnant=no
No Bladder infect
No Kidney infect
Nothing that shows up on xray

I am fucked.
I get to sleep in the recliner. Fucking Yay.

However, because I can not eat much (especially on days I work) I think I may be losing some weight. Not quite what I had in mind... but better than nothing I suppose.


Although... I can not drink. Alcohol just makes it worse... which has made my mood worse just because when I want a drink, I can not have it. And that makes me bitchy like a petulant child.