Drown

So, it has been months, months and months. But i guess I stopped writing because I really didn't want to think about all the crap. Don't want to think about health problems, don't want to think about money problems.
Here is the basics of those. Doctors still don't know what is wrong with me, but things seem to be getting a tiny bit better that way. Work is bad. They have implimented a payroll freeze, so I wont get a raise until 2010. Even though my manager still gets all his bonuses that he doesn't deserve in the first place. I might kill them for that. But instead I took down all the corporate bosses phone numbers and I am going to complain. But not even fast food restaurants are hiring here, so I am stuck. Money is tight, but oh well.
Basically, I am stuck in this stupid state for an indefinite amount of time due to some crap with the husband's school. So, I decided to make the best of it, and I am going to go back to school. I am going to study the geo-sciences and potentially education. I like rocks, I like science, I think I can teach. Not sure, but I never know until I try. If I fail, oh well. I am used to it, so it won't be so bad. At least I will know.
I'm trying to be more social with people at work. Not much, but a little. A girl I work with and I are planning on going out on St Patrick's Day, and hopefully we will have fun and then I can have a buddy :)
Our other friends, the fairweather ones, aren't being the best of friends. They had a housewarming part for their new place as well as a movie night with a bunch of their friends and some of our mutual friends, and neither of them even bothered to invite my husband or myself. I don't think that is fair. At least my husband should have been invited, because they are supposed to be best friends. Oh well. Apparently not.
Well, until the next month I remember...