Carrots, Zombies, and Hops

Happy Saint Patrick's Day! I felt like this image would be appropriate for three reasons. 1) It is spring and it is a picture of a plant. 2) It is green. 3) It is a necessary ingredient of beer... what I plan to be drinking soon.
So I remembered something last night. I realized that my self esteem issues are not just a physical thing. I realized that I had it when I was little too, just to a less extent. When I was in the first grade (or whatever grade it is that you learn to write) my teacher was teaching us to always capitalize proper nouns. Being my inquisitive little self, I asked why. You could tell that she didn't get asked why to capitalize something before. She told me it was because people and places were important, and we show them that they are important by capitalizing their names. (I thought that that was what everyone consciously thought when they wrote peoples names) I did not think that I was important, so I never capitalized my name. I hoped for the teacher or someone to tell me that I was important and that I needed to capitalize my name. But that never happened. So I thought that I was right... I wasn't important. And I think that is where it might have started. So, now I know that my poor self image and esteem was stupid through middle and high school. Now, now it might just be justified, but I wish I could go back and smack my younger self and her that she was both important and hot, and to get over it. Haha (I don't like typing "lol"). I am sure that everyone wishes that they could do something like that. Go back and tell their college self not to eat all the french fries and to stick to straight shots instead of beer. Go back and tell their high school self to pay a little more attention and not to skip because it is a little more important to figure it out.
So I tried to add some little things I've done to my deviantart account, but for some reason I can't get it to work. I like to make collages. Probably because my brain can think up pretty and unique things, but I can not make my hands do it. I can paint a pretty mean pop art looking tree branch. But that is about it. I know so many ridiculously artistic people who have the god given talents to make beautiful art, or sing fantastically, or play an instrument like a god. If you can't tell I might be a little jealous.

Well, taking my mind off of things like that, I am going to drink a lot tonight. I was thinking about going and eating some potatoes rice and bread. Haha. Just kidding. Just rice. Rice is delicious, and I do not think that it would hurt very much if I had to throw up. Also, it probably wont give me heartburn, which I have been getting a lot lately. Which sucks, because I have an addiction to spicy food. I can not think of a meal that I love that isn't spicy. Except a few things like mashed potatoes. Or navy bean soup. Or ham. Or carrots, I love carrots. A lot.

Speaking of carrots, I think I will go make the food that I am going to eat tonight. Maybe I will make myself a drink. I really am a winner, drinking by myself in the middle of Idaho, writing, googling things, and watching CSI (which is funny because a few of them are wearing green and it is the day you're supposed to. haha.)

I will leave you with the image of a little acrylic doll that I painted. Like a mini dunny, except way different. I made a middle management zombie. Yaay. I like zombies. I scare really easy but still. Shaun of the dead is one of my favorite movies... even though it is a comedy it has xombies. What could be better? Maybe little star trek nerd zombies.

(Post Script: I saw a movie the other day called Mutant Zombie Vampires from The Hood. Funny stuff huh?

PPS: Feel free to comment, I'd like peoples opinions.)